I’m pretty sure he is having an affair… or sleeping with someone.
He is vaguely admitting it, but I’m not really sure. Honestly, I’m curious.
I just want this to be over.
It’s funny when he tells me how if I’m not going to be a wife… and all I do is challenge him.
I don’t even know if I could classify it as a challenge. If I have an opinion, it is usually shot down. And my opinion… my thought…that is the challenge…
But relationships – strong relationships are built on a back and forth. We have no back and forth.
In sex he only wanted to be on top. I think the one time I was he complained I was too heavy or I didn’t know what I was doing. All I truly remember is that awkward feeling.
I miss how fun sex can be.
Sex was never fun with him. Never giggles I didn’t feel were part of my act.
The other men I had been with prior to being married had been interested in me. My hair, my body, my conversations, my orgasms.
He never cared if I had an orgasm. Our discussions are like that. He wants to be on top and doesn’t care what my opinion or idea is.
A lot of positive energy has died that way.
